Hide and Seek

“Where are you?”

For some very strange reason, this is one of the questions many people find uncomfortable and harrowing, especially when this is asked by an intimate partner. I think God knew precisely where Adam was when He asked him this question, "where are you?" And if we really need to be honest with each other, this should be a very easy one to answer. I mean it's just 3 words thrown together in order to gain perspective of one's location. Just 3 simple words. Where. Are. You. I mean, really, nothing could be simpler.

The reality, however, is that this is a very loaded question. It’s much heavier than the 3 words that carry it.

I was chatting with my neighbour recently, and very profoundly yet randomly, we spoke about how important it is for people, particularly those in intimate or close relationships to call each other on the phone and ask that question, which many find uncomfortable, "where are you?” That discomfort, for want of a better term, is what we need to focus on.

When Adam was asked that question, he knew exactly what God was asking. A shift had occurred in their relationship and he had found himself totally displaced. So then God asked Adam to define his position in relation to Him, and that is one of the things Adam must have been running away from.

I wasn't there in the Garden of Eden and I speak with no authority on the matter, but I imagine Adam and God had an intimate relationship and friendship. So deep was their relationship (I imagine) that when God merely appeared in the garden, Adam (and Eve) hid. They just had to hide. They couldn't face him, for reasons that are obvious. An agreement had been breached, a covenant was broken. And Adam couldn’t face the aftermath and consequence of that fractured relationship.

God asks Adam a very simple question, “Where are you?”

In many ways, we continue to grapple with that question today.

In Sesotho, Sepedi or Tswana languages, when you ask a person how they are doing, you say “le kae?” The direct translation of this simple question is “where are you?” So in other words the question of how you are doing has to do with your positioning in life. Not a positioning of your physical location, but it is about your positioning in the cosmos. The appropriate and normal response to that Sesotho question is “ke teng”, which means “I am here”. I mean, isn’t this just so profound? I wish I had words and a way to really unpack how profound this is. I am here, I am present, I am integrated with my past, present and future, altogether in one place. I am not disintegrated or scattered. I am. As you see me, so I am. I am. And because I am, you can then relate with me. Ke teng.

Relationships are about constantly asking questions. Let me repeat that. Relationships are about constantly asking questions. (Pretty thick coming from a single guy ain't it). But seriously, in relationships, you’re always asking questions, especially in the early stages. It's important that you do. And one of the critical questions to ask is precisely the one which Adam dreaded being asked that horrible day. And that is the question Sesotho speaking people are asking each other today, albeit in slightly different contexts.

This might not go down well, but I’m just going to go ahead and say it: we are always hiding. That's the reality. Always hiding. We are either hiding or are hiding things. And like our forefather and foremother, we hide behind clothes and all these material things we work so hard to attain. I will work SOO HARD so that at the end of the month I can earn some money that will allow me to buy an expensive piece of clothing that I can hide under. We are so crazy about and fixated on hiding things. Call it covering up, I call it hiding.

Unlike Adam, why can’t we just stand and declare our position? Naked or not. Compromised or not. State your position.

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When my neighbour and I were discussing this concept of “where are you”, she affirmed its importance by giving an example of how even at work, she would pick up the land-line and phone a colleague on the land-line extension and go on to ask “where are you”, although it would be very obvious that if they picked up the land-line phone, they should be sitting comfortably at their desk.

In relationships, people are constantly trying to find and locate one another. We are forever seeking to know where our loved ones are, as we should.  The big thing though is that this question’s intention is not simply an attempt to determine the physical location of the person, but rather an attempt to know or perhaps have the person define their positioning as it relates to us.

Maybe it is my naiveté, but what I said to my neighbour  was that I believe any person in any sort of relationship should be able to, without any fear of prejudice, ask their partner where they are. I cannot see how you can relate to a person without knowing where they are. I can’t.  It’s not possible. And no, it’s not creepy. I’m not creepy. Really really. It’s just a matter of really trying to understand how to relate with you at that particular point.  

If, at the worst case scenario, you ask me that question and I happen to be at a compromised position like Adam was, that is all the more reason why your question should be justified. I say, ask your girlfriend that question and don’t be ashamed to. Ask your boyfriend, husband, son, daughter where on earth they are. Ask them. You must. And they must answer.

Let’s stop this thing of hiding. It is so 1920s.

Once you start struggling answering that question “where are you?” then you should really start asking yourself “where indeed am I?” Like a Sesotho speaker, are you able to confidently say “I am here”?

If not, then, as we say in the mines, makhulu problem.